Breathless Part I

Just how I wish to have you in my life and become part of me. But, maybe and just maybe, we are never born to be together. And still, if I am not meant to be with you, I'll pray for your happiness.

No one will ever knows what I feel towards you. Because for me, this feeling is real. .

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Bad Luck!

I LOST MY PHONE ONCE AGAIN! I lost it in our cafe this morning. I know that one of the workers had took it, but he don't want to admit. So, what should I do? Confront? Already. Argue? Yes, I did. But, still the same.

At first, I didn't cry at all. How could be a hero like me crying for just a bullshit reason. But, once I talked to my mom, I finally cried like a child. Yeah, I miss my mom very badly. My bapak and siblings too. Can't wait to go back to Sabah. So, I've called my mom to tell her about this. And she said, "ndak apa la nak, itu cuma cobaan". She adviced me to not to confront with the "mamak" again. She just don't want me to have any enemies here.

I'm just worry about my pictures there. Even I didn't have any sensored pictures inside it, but still got few free-hair images. Hmm, just how could I be that careless. .I just hope that his heart will be open to give me back my phone, but just if he want to keep my phone desperately, please do not do anything 'bout my pictures. Please.  .Amin. .

Actually, there are a lot to story but I've lost the mood to write long. .

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It Will Rain!

Hello, people! Lately, I keep on listening to Bruno Mars songs. So, this is what I found on Youtube. Enjoy!

So, currently falling in love with Bruno Mars. I love his voice, songs, lyrics, videos. .they are all meaningful. "It Will Rain" is one of his latest song and I love it very much. When I listen to the song, its music and lyrics, they likely make me fly away from the real world. As this song is one of the Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn OST, I feel like I'm in the vampire-wolf-human world when listening to this beautiful song. Just how great it feels to be in that imaginary world. .sigh. .

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screwed-head of mine!

Anyway, greetings guys! *eventhough I know that nobody is viewing my page. . haha

Well, who cares? This is just for fun and always be the place for me to write in English.

So, I was just wake up. . haha

Yeah, was just sleeping from 3.00 pm to 5.30 pm. Hmm, two hours of sleeping makes me “tired”.

Alright, finally we are reaching the end of the week. (Already reached actually)

So, this week is such a long week actually, because there are many things happened.

First thing first, as I wish, my housemates are all getting better now. Hooray! My roommate and I had taking parts to solve the problem. Yeah, we had become the “middle party”. Hehe. . After giving some briefings and advices to both parties personally, they finally can think properly about their situations and have the willing to reconcile. And, as time goes by very slowly, they managed to overcome their hatreds toward each other by communicating as before like nothing had happened. So, now we are living very peacefully as a family again. =)) Alhamdulillah~

Dear my housemates: Thank you guys. You all have done a great job for the sake of our family. Good job guys! *wink

My beloved housemates. From left to right : Emi, Peja, Atie, Me, Nisa, Aimi and Hanan. One more is Farah, but she is not there.

Secondhand serenade, the last two days, I’ve been through an interview in my college. It is an interview for the “Aspirasi Unggul” Camp! I thought that the interview session will be just simple so I was completely didn’t prepare anything. And you know what? The interview session was totally SUCKS! What has happened is they asked too many “hard-core” questions. I was just like, hah ? But still, I think I can answer those “grilled-questions” la. Actually, the camp is organized to choose new MTMs for our college for next year. MTM stand for “Majlis Tertinggi Mahasiswa” or Students Supreme Council. But, to enjoy myself is the only reason for me to join the camp. There is no other reason. Seriously, I am not interested in becoming one of the MTMs. And guess what? During the interview, I’ve said that I want to be one of them. OOOoo my . . Sorry, seniors. I didn’t mean to lie. But, actually guys, I am so dilemma about the camp wether to join or not. Because, I’ve checked the tickets for going back to Sabah and their prices are too high if I join the camp. What the FLUE? So now, I am just waiting for the result to come out and decide right after it.

I am so dilemma.

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Thirty Second to Mars, yesterday, we went for shopping at MINES. Aimi, Hanan, and I. Usually, we’ll go shopping by 4 including Atie but she got some business in Malacca. Once we reached Mines, we booked 3 movie tickets (we chose to watch “Ombak Rindu”. . hehe) before we went for lunch in the crowded McD! As our movie started at 5.40 pm, so we went for SHOPPING first! You know what, I bought a BASKETBALL! Hehe. .How I wished to have it before this, so I bought one la! And we’ll play it tonight, O yeah! Then, I also bought a new handbag to add my collections. A cheap one only la. I’d finished about RM120 that day. Kind of OK. Thanks to the ball for contributing the largest amount. And before we went back home, we managed to stop by at the uptown. Yet, we bought some jerseys and having dinner there. FYI, the atmosphere is really cool, bebeh!

"Ombak Rindu" is such a great movie. But, still failed to make me cry. . haha

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Lastly, it’s about my frustration the other day.  Yeah, I’m kind of stress with someone. If you read my previous post, I’m sure that you all think that I was broken-hearted. But, actually I wasn’t. I was just feeling depressed when I think that I’ve fallen for someone. I shouldn’t be too hasty in making decision about my feelings towards anyone. Because, I finally realize that by having negative thinking about those kind of feeling and relationship will just killing me. I’m sure that you guys don’t understand what I am trying to say. Well, just ignore this. What I want to stress is just that I’m currently not fallen for anyone and I know that he is just adorable.

Not related at all . .haha

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Ok, people. I think this is the end of the story of the week. Let’s just wait and see what’ll happen next week. I just hope that it’ll be a better week than the previous weeks. So, enjoy your lives guys! But please enjoy it in beautiful ways, OK! See you soon.

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HEY YOU!

Hey you! This is just for you. . 

How I wish to play guitar. .

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I like your smile
I like your vibe
I like your style
But that's not why I love you

And I, I like the way  
You're such a star  
But that's not why I love you
 
Hey, do you feel, do you feel me?  
Do you feel what I feel too?  
Do you need, do you need me?  
Do you need me?

You're so beautiful
But that's not why I love you
I'm not sure you know
   
That the reason I love you
Is you being you, just you  
Yeah, the reason I love you  
Is all that we've been through  
And that's why I love you

I like the way you misbehave  
When we get wasted  
But that's not why I love you
And how you keep your cool  
When I am complicated  
But that's not why I love you

Hey, do you feel, do you feel me?  
Do you feel what I feel too?  
Do you need, do you need me?  
Do you need me?

Is you being you, just you  
Yeah, the reason I love you  
Is all that we've been through  
And that's why I love you
That's why I love you  
That's why I love you

Avril Lavigne - I Love You

This is such a beautiful lyrics. .

What the ?

Greetings people ..

Orait, I dont know what to story about. So, I'll just write things that cross my mind right now. Well, now I'm sitting on a chair in our living room. 

Since last week, we had received some of our Test 2 results. So, my result is just OK. Yeah, as we all know, when the results come out, not all will be satisfied with their achievements. I can see that some of my friends are being sorrow lately. And I know, that must be because of their results. But for me, I just accept whatever given to me. I mean, what to regret when the results had come? We can change nothing you know?! What to do is just accept it as a failure and let that failure teaches us to have better achievements. What're all with those long faces? Alright people, FYI, I also got bad results in Test 1. But, what did I do? Yeah, I just faced it! Each time people asking me my marks, I just told them! What to be ashamed of? Yeah, I know that we should be embarrassed to tell other people about our bad results. But, if you think about it positively, you actually will be more vigor to strike to prove that you can get better than that as people knew your results. Okay, I think I’ll just continue later.

Stories of the week. .

Well, 2 weeks of silence. Not because that I have nothing to share. Actually, I have a lot to story but I just dont have time to write. Of course I do have lots of stories. It wouldn't be me if I dont have stories. Heheh.

So, what to highlight this week are . . .

1st, Yeah, i've been active in sports lately. The sport that I play this time is FUTSAL. Well, this is my first time playing futsal seriously. And the first sport that I have to play by foot. Yeah, as I have to kick the ball! SERIOUSHITLY, I feel very awkward when playing futsal. I can't control my feet and I feel very stress because each time I got the ball, it can't stay long by me. But still, I was chosen to play on this coming INTERGROUP tournament. Yeah, I appreciate a lot for selecting me as one of the palyer instead of others.

My teammates,O yeah!

2nd, I tend to get stomachache (not diarrhea), headache and whatsoever. I dont know why. Is that because I still cant adapt to the foods and weathers here in peninsula? But come on, I've been staying here for almost 3 months okay. Well, maybe I can't eat spicy foods. FYI, most of the foods here are spicy. VERY VERY SPICY! It is very hard to find something "normal" here. I mean regular, not SPICY la. .So, actions to take : avoid spicy foods and makanan pelik2. . but, still need to see a doctor. .

3rd, arrgghh. . Should I write this or should not? Well, this is a story of a guy that I. . some kind of admire. . Alright, he is just a friend, indeed! Okay, I admit that I admire him. Wether I just admire or whatever, but one thing I want to highlight here is that lately he keep on ignoring me. I wonder if I've done wrong to him. Okay, I think I shouldn't write more than that.

4th, is about my housemates here. Just some of them actually. The problem here is I can't understand their problems! Orait, sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit, apatah lagi kawan serumah kn. .( SORRY for changing this peribahasa a lil bit) Yeah, they can't accept each others existence right now. I also don't get it. But, I've remind myself not to intefere their problems. Of course I dont want to get involve in any permasalahan, I mean problems, here because this place (peninsula) is totaly not my place as I am the only one Sabahan in this house. So, I have to be nice to all people here including all those coursemates and seniors and just be myself. For my beloved housemates, I just hope that they'll reconcile soon. I love you, guys!

Alright people, I think I should stop here as I have works to do. So, Good bye people. .ASSALAMUALAIKUM

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Avoid this!

Avoid this, guys. Because you'll never know what's inside of me!

Yeah, underestimating others is a truly fucking-shit thing ever! Why should you look down on others? Do you think that you're great enough?! Please, STOP IT!

     Ok, people. We were born together with our own specialities and weaknesses. Each person with different specialities and weaknesses.

Have you ever thougt about those bus drivers, farmers, fishermen out there? Compared to other people which are teachers, engineers, architects, doctors and other government or public officers, Yeah, they are lack in their education. Most of them weren't even schooling during their childhood time. But, do you think that those big people - government or public officers, able to drive buses with full of passengers, plant crops or even catch fishes in the sea? The answer is NO! Same goes to these small people, they also can't do what those big people do. So, actually, God is very fair in dividing our abilities and weaknesses so that we can keep satisfying things that we are lacking of each other.

     As a conclusion, we are still lacking many things, in many aspects of life. So, to live peacefully without hatred or any other bad feelings, DON'T ever underestimate people around you and accept them the way they are as they accept you the way you are because they are the ones that'll nourishing your lives.

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My first sport in College!

These are our team players! Go, go k17!

Haha, actually the 2nd one after the "Larian Kampus" the other day!
But, Let us just talk about this one. I mean about the basketball.
1st of all, my position in this team is the DEFENDER.
Well, the tournament is finally OVER! Actually not yet, but for us, yes it is! haha
Means that we won't be heading to the court again because we aren't qualified to have any matches with other colleges . . 

Yeah, this is because we had lost both games with K16 and K6.

During the match with K16, the game was so fierce! We lost to them only for 5 points, means for 2 balls.

These are some of my team members. 13 jersey, yeah that's me!

While the match with K16, the game was very vigorous. We lost to them for 21 points! So, it is very true that K6 is very strong in basketball. Actually, not only in basketball but almost in all sports!

Yeah, so just let bygones be bygones. Most important thing is that we have tried our best during the games and we'll try again next year! =D

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Quotations!

I love QUOTATIONS! They give me the spirit to SURVIVE and REVIVE from failure! So, these are 6 of my favorite quotations :

Action is the FOUNDATIONAL key to all success!

   - Pablo Picasso

Defeat is not the real FAILURE. Not to have TRIED is the TRUE FAILURE! 

-  George Edward Woodberry

Don’t aim for success if you WANT IT; just DO what you love and BELIEVE IN & it will come NATURALLY!

  

 -  David Frost

FAILURE is SUCCESS if we LEARN from it! 

-  Malcolm Forbes

Develop SUCCESS from FAILURES. DISCOURAGEMENT and FAILURE are TWO of the SUCCESS stepping stones to SUCCESS!

  -  Dale Carnegie

Haha, love this picture!

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FORMULA for SUCCESS: RISE EARLY, WORK HARD, STRIKE OIL!

  -  (unknown)

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Surprised!

O my gosh! Yesterday night, I can’t believe that I was called to be in the basketball team! I was such a, WOW! That was amazing! Praise to Allah for giving me the chance to be one of the team player. Yeah, finally I achieved one of my dreams. For sure, to achieve something, we shouldn’t give up! Keep trying! Well, I’ve told you that BASKETBALL is my most favorite sport. So, it feels great when I am considered as one of the PLAYER, you know! Hehe . . So, now I’m practicing basketball to strengthen my skills with some of the players. Yeah, once I join the team, I realize that I am still lack in many things of this sport. So, I must have lots more practice than the other players. Well, that is because usually, I play basketball by 3 on 3, means that we’re just playing for half of the court. But this time, I have to play it by 5 on 5 and of course I will be playing for FULL COURT! Yeah, and to play full court, I need to double my stamina! Thus, I need to have lots of effort to achieve it. 

This is my favorite basketball anime DEAR BOYS! They are really cool.

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So, the coming tournament is the INTERCOLLEGE TOURNAMENT. It will be held on this coming Tuesday. Yeah, so there is only 3 days left to practice. I heard that k6 and k16 will be our first opponents! Many said that they are really good in this sport. But, I think there is nothing to be afraid of. We’ll just do our best and play it with high of team spirit! I think these are the most important things when doing something in grouping. 

Well, sport is sport. But, now I also need to give more attention to my study. Because my 1^st test the other day was quiet bad. Not too bad, but kind of! Yeah, so I need to focus on both study and sport. I have to work harder to achieve high pointer so that I can apply for scholarships! And of course, this is for my future and my beloved family.

Nice picture, right? XD

(picture selected from Google)

p/s: we shouldn’t give up in something we love! We should keep trying until the end! And, most important thing is DO YOUR BEST in everything you do so that you wouldn’t regret. .

 

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Dissatisfaction

Today, we just received our jerseys that we had ordered from somewhere in Kelantan via one of our coursemates. Then, you know what? We are quite shocked with the size of those jerseys. They are too small you know. Only kids below twelve can wear them. We were expecting that we’ll be satisfied with those jerseys but, (*speechless)!

Okay, before we ordered those jerseys, we had asked him what kind of size that the company is offering? Then, he said “international size”. So, of course we, as girls, ordered for S size.

But, finally, when we received them, they are actually S size for Asian people. What the H ?! It’s MYR28 OK!
Well, our coursemate shouldn’t be blame for this matter, and my friends and I also not pointing our fingers toward him. (that phrase seems weird for this sentence. . haha)

Yeah, we do understand his situation and feelings right now. We know that he also never expect that this SHIT would happen. He must be feeling that people won’t trust him again. Pity him but maybe not really. .

Actually, I doubt something about him. Not really but, I keep thinking about this. I think that he already knew about the size before the company made those jerseys but just that his problem to contact us during the holidays then he let the company made them as they please.

It’s because he can’t argue even a little bit with the company. Why can’t he? We are the customers ok! Customers always right! ( even actually not! I don’t agree with this phrase but in this situation =.=’ hehehe)

Ok, so I don’t know what will happen tomorrow when we meet him. He keep on apologizing but I don’t think that that works. So, I think just let bygones be bygones! It’s the best way to release this disssatisfation.

Well, this is not the real jersey. I just select it from Google!

p/s : To all people out there, do not easily believe to any companies that you just heard especially those on the internet. And, do fight for your rights! Live PEACEfully . .

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We Love Shopping!

Walking on the sidewalk of Jalan TAR.

From left to right: Myself, Nik, Sya, Farhana

Disappointment . .

about hope . .

Hope . . hope is a huge feeling that everybody should have. . why hope?? hmm~ I don't know. I think I understand what is hope but i just can't describe it .. from my understanding  ( I don't know yours), hope is very related to dreams. . when there is a dream, there is a hope. Hope in the scop of love, education, family and many other things.

I also do have hopes. I hope that I'll success in my study so I can repay my parents for their very huge contributions to my life. Eventhough I know that I can't pay them all. But I promise to give them the very best of myself.

I also hope that I can be a good basketball player. I love this sport since I was in standard 6. I don't know why but this sport really give me the passion when I play.

http://www.google.com.my/images

The last but not least( I don't want to write much since it is midnight already), I hope that someday I'll find the most sincere partner to live with ( ok, I don't know what I'm talking about). Accept me the way I am, and I'll accept you too. .

p/s : in such situation, I mean the love part. .please do not give any hope to anyone when your heart actually says NO. Because, it is actually really2 hurtful. .

Ok, guys. .  I don't know what I am mumbling about but this is actually just for fun and to polish my ENGLISH language.. I apologize for all mistakes about this post including my grammar. .so,, adiooss!!

Updating!

it's been a LONG TIME i didn't update my blog. i wonder what is the use of this blog. this blog is actually created about 7 months ago just to finish our last assignments. but, i am now trying to learn and understand this blog, what i can do with it and find what i can get from it. so, here we come!!
=))

A beginner. . .

Creating a blog is not as easy as I thought.