Looking at the sky, wondering where all the stars have gone to?
And wondering if I’m still waiting for you.
I don’t want to wait, I don’t want to think of you, I don’t want to miss you, but I still do!
It really breaks my heart that I still do.

Dear you,

If u want me to wait for you, ask me or tell me to. Don't keep silent cause i don't know what to do. Your silence keeps me hanging here, or shall I just move on? So, please say something.

I hope u read this.

Stupidly waiting,
Me

When I'm With You

When I'm with you
The wind stops howling
The storm stops striking
The rain stops pouring
The sun is shining
The ice is all melting
The river is moving
The soil is growing
The flowers are blooming
The trees are laughing
The birds are merrily chirping
And, to us the world is smiling.

I am no longer an MTM.

Hi, everyone. It’s been a while I didn’t write. I know! It’s because I forgot my password. Huargghhhh!
But, it’s ok. So, I’m gonna start with something I’ve wrote, but failed to post as I forgot my password.
 

"Yes, today is the day. My time as an MTM is officially ended. I feel good and sad at the same time. There are oceans of memories and joys. Becoming an MTM taught me so much about life. Ok, I don’t know how to start actually as there are so much things running in my head. I don’t know what to say.

1^st of all, I’m super glad and happy as Kolej 17 is declared as the Champion in UPM Inter-college Sports 2012/2013. Actually, we got champion for women category, and 2^nd runner-up for men category. Alhamdulillah. I’m so proud of the team who managed to take us this far, especially my co-SPORTS MTM (Khalid and Aini). We’ve been through a lot on winning the championship. I’ll never forget that. Well, we do have great athletes though. Hihi

The best moment ever! I'm gonna miss this!! sob, sob :'(

So now, I have to let go my position and let other people lead the team. It’s not my time to shine anymore. It’s time for others to show what they got. I just can hope that they’ll achieve better than what we have now. But, it still depends on luck, right? God sure has the best plan for us.

To my co-MTM (all other secretariats), I just want to say thank you, thank you, thank you, for always being by my side through the ups and downs, especially my new bestfriends Zam and Izni. I know I couldn’t have made it without both of you. You guys helped me a lot, I’ll never forget that.

My co-MTM :)

This MTM world is seriously astonishing. I’ll never regret of becoming one of these people. They just awesome! And, I feel great.

I don’t know what to say anymore. Just want to conclude all, this MTM world is very precious, give you gratifying memories, good experiences, arduous and mental challenges, and oceans of treasures to be treasured!

So, to the juniors, be glad to become one! Hihi"

Thanks for reading. Good luck!

It's a New Life!

Hi, there!

It’s been alooong time I didn’t write. And I’m kind of missing it. Well, I love writing so much, but what can I do? There were so many things to handle and settle. I’d spent a lot of my times on my responsibility as an MTM. Well, I almost finish a semester as an MTM. Sports MTM. A mountain of knowledge I’ve learnt, and there are mountains more to be learned. But, I won’t use this as an excuse for me not studying.

Okay, my final examination is finished, so 1^st semester of my second year is officially ended! But, I’m still in the college. Not going back yet as I have to join a camp, “Aspirasi Unggul IV” Camp as a facilitator, from 14th to 20th of January. If you still remember, I’d joined this camp last year as a participant.

I’ve gone through so much for this whole semester. Being an MTM is not easy. You have to be very tough to become one. Physically and mentally. Tears, angry, heart-broken, disappointment, and sometimes I could possibly get mad. But, with my friends beside me, my days are cherished with joy and happiness while holding this responsibility. And, I admit that my life has changed. Soo much! A good change, of course.

This MTM world, nobody will understand it unless you become part of it. People could possibly misjudge us from what they see. But, for sure they’ll never understand. Almost all of us have cried, for so many reasons. But, people outside will never see those tear drops of us. For us all, those tear drops have made us stronger each and everyday.

I’ve never regret of becoming an MTM. For me, the decision I made last semester in the interview is very right. No doubt, I know I’m on the right track now. All the lecturers, felos, staff, seniors, and friends in the college have helped me very much. They taught me so many things. Without them, I think my world would be inside out, upside down.

Being an MTM gives me the chance to explore and venture almost everything as a university student, inside and outside the college and university. I’ve met a lot and so many kinds of people. I’ve made a lot of connections too. A lot of friends, acquaintances, and magic friends which I can call them families.

So, to those who have helped me on my journey as an MTM and a student too, I would like to thank and apologize for giving such big burdens sometimes. I hope that you guys will continue to support me wherever and whenever. I know that just by thanking and apologizing won’t be enough to pay your hard works to help and support me. But, I’ll try to give my best too in supporting anything you’d do.

Thank you, thank you, and thank you! ^_^     bye!

HOLIDAY? YUP, WHATEVER!

Hi, everyone. How do you do? Yup, yup, it’s a very-long-time-no-see.

Well, I was kind of busy. Was? Still busy, actually. Yeah, busy with my 1^st year of practical activities.

Hmm, what should I tell you this time, huh? Ok, let’s start with . . .

1^st, final exam is over, so my JUNIOR YEAR is officially ended! Therefore, I am now doing my 1^st year practical in MPS. Yeah, I should be now enjoying my holiday like the other students, but what can I do? 

2^nd, everybody knows that the final exam is over, right? Hell yeah, for this exam, I can’t expect anything about my pointer. Well, I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO THINK OF! I feel damn SUCK! Yes, during the exam, I can’t answer the questions properly. Seriously, I do did study during the study week, but it felt like everything that I had studied ended up went down to the drain. My carry marks? Fuh, don’t try to put any hope in that. I can’t even achieve comfort marks for each subject. Now, I just got nothing to help me in achieving a higher pointer. All I can do now is to wait for a miracle to happen. Yeah, tawakkal is the only thing I can think about.

3^rd, I should tell you that I was chosen as one of the Student Supreme Council or MTM for this coming 2 semesters. Well, I was nicely put in the SPORTS UNIT. Urgh, I don’t know what to talk or comment about this “thing”. Y’know what? I also do not know how did I end up being one of the MTMs.
Ok, actually at the first place, I wanted to be an MTM. But then, after I joined some activities with the other candidates, I suddenly lost my appetite to be one. WHY? It’s because I can’t cooperate with some of the candidates. I just really can’t get into the way they behave and think. Sometimes, I do feel that they are putting too many ‘lame dramas’ in anything they do. The way they behave and think seem they want to show everybody that they are good and know everything. Seriously, I don’t get it. Is it too important to be noticed by the seniors and lecturers? *Oh, Jira, c’mon! Of course they want to be picked as one of the MTMs!
Hmm, yeah, I did lost my desire to be one of them. But then, I thought back of it. Why should I sacrifice my chance to be one of the leaders just because of some unimportant people? I shouldn’t let other people ruin a great future of mine, right?
So, I went to the interview and asked to be put in the SPORTS UNIT because sports unit is the only unit that I love to be into. Luckily, I got it! If not, . . then I don’t have to write about this.
You know what, now I am building a huge wall of praserverance towards this new organization. FYI, although new semester hasn’t even started yet, but these people, already started showing their ‘intelligence’, show-off-ness , and everything. Urgh, I hate these! But YES, I have to try my best to give full cooperation with them.

One more thing about becoming an MTM, I seem lost some important individuals in my life. Although I haven’t started to move alone, but I already know that it’ll happen to me later. Even now, it is happening. I know that many of them say that I’ve changed and became an arrogant person right after I have a good position in college. But, please do not misunderstood guys. I am still the same as the before-HS. I don’t change! But, if you think my attitude changed, it’s because of other personal reasons and nothing to do with my position. Maybe you should consider your attitude towards me, for what I know, I treat people the way they treat me.

Then, what? Ok, Ramadhan is coming. So, Happy fasting everyone.

Horray! It's mid-semester break!

Greetings dudes!

It’s been a long time I didn’t do blogging. Why? As I said before I was too busy participating and handling my college and university activities and programs. Until now, I only finished managing the male futsal team, and there are a lot more to go through. Well, let me share a lil’ bit about my experience in managing the male futsal team the other day.

Actually, this was an inter-college tournament. At first, we won as the champion in the A team league, defeating k14, k15, and k12. Then, we also won in the quarter-final, defeating k6 which qualify us to go to the semi-final. In semi-final, we won again by defeating KTDI, scoring 2-0. The final match was with KOSASS. We had lost to KOSASS in this match. This match with KOSASS was so fierce, where we were given 10 minutes additional time, for draw a few times. 1-1, 2-2, 3-3, 4-4, and finally KOSSAS managed to defeat us by scoring 6-4 in the last minutes time. So as a conclusion, we only managed to stand on the 2^nd place. Though we had lost one time, I feel so grateful, for we’d reached the final match. Of course, only three days of training didn’t promise us anything to win. Thus, I’m very satisfied already to be the 1st runner-up. I hope the players have the same feeling too, because for me, we should always be grateful in what we have achieved.

Me, the players, and Nik ^ ^

The White Warriors!

Stretching, huh! haha

Ehem, while managing this team, it’s kind of hard for me because. .yes, of course they are all male. Well, when we talk about male students, they are kind of lazy. Haha. But, it’s okay la as long as they have the determination to win. I found that they have their own training sessions every day. So, to all of the players, thank you for everything and sorry for something, especially about my language. I realized that I often used bad languages in my communications. Well, nice to know you guys! And not forgetting my partner Nik, also millions of thanks and I’m very sorry for everything.
Ok, so that’s all about our futsal team.

Well, this is mid-semester break! Hooray!  So, currently I’m staying in UM with my sister here. I’ll be back to UPM on Wednesday, for I’ve to go to Perak for the Indigenous Adoption Program, organized by the Student Supreme Council of k17, for 3 days, 2 nights on 13^th to 15^th of April. Well, staying in UM right now is quite boring, because I can only sit in my sister’s bed, facebook-ing and watch her study. Hmm, she is now sitting for her final as a PASUM student. Well, FYI, I really admire my sister for her determination in pursuing her study. Although, there are too many obstacles resist her, she has never giving up. For me, my sister is the best role model to achieve success in this life.

OMG, I feel so suffocated right now. I want to play basketball actually, but it is still raining outside. Then, what should I do? Watch a movie maybe? OK, let’s stop until here. See you soon. Thanks for reading. Have a nice holiday, everyone! ^^